Alhamdulillah, I'm Married Now!

 Assalamualaikum guys! Jannah dah kahwin! Tolong lah terkejut jugak.

How come perempuan yang kata taknak kahwin, end up kahwin at age 28 years old? Kenapa Jannah buat keputusan drastik ni? Why why why?

To be honest, aku pun tak tahu. It just happen like that. Dari bertunang, pilih tarikh then boom majlis nikah. Everything went extremely smooth macam lepas satu, satu urusan dipermudahkan. Tipu lah kalau kata takde masalah kan. But, surprisingly everything macam sap sap soi settle semua. 

Pada 4 Jun 2022, hari sabtu pukul 10 pagi macam tu, saya dah sah jadi isteri Mohd Salman Safwan Bin Mansor. Hahahahah tak percaya nya Jannah dah jadi isteri orang. Overall, not much changes happen this one month. 

Tapi tu lah, lepas kahwin ni kan emosi dia lain macam gila. Aku bukan lah jenis mengempeng sangat. Tapi lepas kawin, first day Man pergi kerja, rasa rindu sangat-sangat. Tak tahu nak kata cane lah. Pastu Man pun sampai nak nangis dia kata rindu punya pasal. Lain macam yaa aura lepas kawin ni hehehe.

Aku agak sedih lah kena tinggal sorang. Balik kampung dua kali, drive sorang je walaupun ada suami. Sebabnya, Man busy. Maka drive lah Jannah dengan berlinangnya air mata. We both consider pjj for this next few weeks sebab he busy with the HUT and kemasukan Bintara. Busy with all that preparation what not. Tapi paling sebak terharu semalam punya kes lah. Dia busy with the preparation. Then dalam pukul 9 malam macam tu, aku bagitahu aku tak sedap badan, tapi makan dah pe semua update kat dia. And macam biasa he act nonchalantly. Pastu tetiba dia text dia lapar. So aku reply lah beli burger ke apa. Tetiba dengar macam bunyi notification phone dia depan rumah. Ahh mustahil lah dia balik. Pukul 12 lebih dahh. Sekali dia bukak pintu. Aaaaa terus Jannah yang cengeng ni meleleh air mata nangis tengok Man masuk rumah.

Menangis sebab rasa bersalah sangat sangat sangat sebab dia balik kl even dah lewat gila. Padahal waktu tu dia boleh je guna waktu tu untuk rehat sebab dapat lepas awal. Tapi, dia balik rumah sebab aku kata badan aku tak sedap. Rasa bersalah sangat sebab kesiankan dia penat bali krumah tengah malam. Esok pagi buta nak gerak balik PD balik. Pukul 5 pagi, gerak balik. Sampai rumah 12.30 pagi. berapa jam je nak tidur. barai wehh

For sure aku seronok dia balik. At the same time, rasa guilty and sedih jadi beban orang. Patut ke lepas ni taknak cakap pape dahh. Takut nak susahkan orang lagi. Tahu suami memang sinonim dengan berkorban, tapi the husband need to be pampered too. Thank you abang sayang, korbankan badan yang penat tu untuk jumpa Jannah 😘



Thank you for your time :)

Is my choice correct?

 

Yesterday mark one year our relationship and no one wish anything. I'm expecting some wish or surprise from him but jokes on me. Silly me having high expectation. Maybe he thought our anniversary is on different date. Donno.

As time goes by right, I keep questioning myself. Am I doing the right decision? You know how much I regretting my decision. Does my tears berbaloi for all this? I've used to be pampered by guy. All the guy I meet before him always pamper me by their affection. Always make me felt loved and assure me they like me. But in Man's case he's like robot. I need to tell him what I want what I need etc. If feels like I'm begging for his attention and affection.   

Somemore, recently Piyok and Iszman just getting engaged. Hahahahahaha lil bit hurt deep down my heart. They met their partner kejap than me. But they are going to next step. Iszman really treat me like a queen. If not because his age, I will accept him. I almost swing because of how he treat me. I felt loved. Then i ditch him and pick Man because Man is older than me and he is left handed. How silly my decision right?

they have found their happiness. While me still despair with Man. I never cry because of guy before. But Man make me cry almost everyday! I felt like not worth at all. I've been in cloud nine before, but now I'm faking my happiness. If to conclude right, I can tell you I cannot recall my happiest moment with Man. Man is a good guy, but donno lah. Maybe I'm soooo used to be pampered before and Man acting contra from I used to be really make me want to end the relationship.

Now I understand why other couple stay eventho they keep crying. Before this I thought, they fool for staying but naahh. Now I learnt my lesson in a hard way. 

I'm choosing this big decision because everyone saying Man is a good guy. My mom also like him and keep ask for his help. So, I choose him for the sake of my mom. I plan to be andartu, and I change my plan because of him. He better treat me right. Make sure all my tears worth the sacrifice.

Bayangkan after we get into relationship, he started his training for 10 months. Then after the training finished, he's busy with the promotion stuff. He better treat me right after all this settle eh. I felt jealous when I saw other couple feeling loved with their partner. Going out dating. Feel lovey dovey, while me crying my eyes out because he got no time for me. Nak story pape, boipreng takde masa nak dengar. Nak keluar lepak, boipreng busy jadi bangla jadian. Takde function pun aku in relationship. Takda beza pun aku single dulu dengan ada boipreng sekarang ni, Bila cakap kat Man kang, dia terasa. But the reality is like that. Dia kena terima lah, eventho very pain to swallow.

I'll just wait till end of this year whether my sacrifice worth or not. I'm tired actually. But I need to fake myself. What a pitiful life I have. Congratulation Jannah!

   

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