I do sceptical on people's promises. And i tend not to trust the promise. Because once you already made a promise, i tend to hold for that and i will hate you if you dont fulfill the promise.
You insisted you different from other. I told you already dont make any promises because i know it would never happen. But you want to prove me that you can and you're not like other guy that i know. Then, up to you la. I'm not trusting you, but i do accept your promise.
And the things happen and i told you i'm not even sure my feeling towards you. I'm comfortable having you around me. I got someone to talk to. You surprise me on my birthday. You give me flower that i like. But i dont want to settle down with you. You said you willing to wait until i become someone's wife. You will try your best to get me even i told you, you no need to do until that extent coz i will feel like i'm the villain.
But you know, promises are meant to be broken. That's what they are made for. You told me you scared. You can't continue any further. You scared if you care for too long, you'll hurt coz you say once you start love me, you cannot stop. While me not even have any feeling towards you. You say you better jaga batas and not over the line. I gladly help you to do so but you mad at me and questioned why i'm different. It's upon your request. I help you not to get further feeling towards me anymore. Yet you get upset about that.
After few month, i think maybe around two month (?) we didnt catch up with each other, suddenly i saw you got new girlfriend already. Wow! So sudden! Hahahahahahah. It's funny for me to digest this situation. YOU who are the one did promise NOT to leave me, GOT NEW girlfriend. Hahahahah. LOL New year, new life, new girlfriend i think.
I'm not mad you got new girlfriend. It's your life. But i hate you for the promises you made to me before. I dont want that promises BUT YOU INSISTED to prove that you're different. I hate you for that. I told you already, i hate you for that. And you play victim when you quote that it's seems like i'm the one who left you. Hahahahaha. I told you i dont have any feeling for you at the first place. Yet, you want to try. Now with all those promises left behind, i'm the one to blame. K hahahahahaha
Once gone, forever gone. I dont want you to interfere in my life anymore. I wont block you or mute you eventho i want to do that badly. But, no need to that extent. It's just i hate you and i cannot stand you anymore. Too bad your mom's tupperware and your shoes that you asked me to buy before still with me. How can i pass to you when i dont even want to meet you. Will wait you coming back KL and see how. Maybe i just drop the thing in front your house.
I dont like to go through this phase. I dont have deep feeling for him, yet i hated him. If he didnt make any promises back then, i'll play cool. But too bad its vice versa. Just hoping the best lah. I'm sorry for the thing i've done before and thank you for all the attention, care, time, money you spent on me.
I should not let my guard down. This thing will always happen. Makes me really give up on marriage eventho Man always asked me for marriage. But i asked him to wait me until i reached 27. If he still can wait me, maybe i'll fulfill his request.
People say, you better marry with people who love you more than you love them. But, it's need to be mutual. You need to have feeling to that person also. Because people is just a human. They get tired eventually!
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